imp role to be played.

exams approachin n still i dnt have my notes ready..this has not happened for the first tym but this tym i m a bit serious.my thinkin towards exam has never changed and still i feel the same tat i have or in fact everyone till my age become use to these types of exam as we r giving them from chidhood days n for me its alwayz same coz i everytym manage to score the same the odd 70%.so there is any sort of load on me coz i think this tym also i ll manage.
I have alwayz been a God fearing person n think tat He will do something gud every tym i need them.last post i posted ,i was i bit senti n a lot mental.my state of mind as been like a pendelom which swings to the extreme kind of thoughts.yesterday mom came down here i dnt knw why but luking at her and listening to her changed my thought which i had a week ago.This tym i have to go home n show my capabilies tat i alwayz had but due to the health problems i m not able to show.gone are the days when ppl needed to take care of me coz i think i m back n ll be able to do things perfectly.i m going to work hard as hard as possible n never lets mom dad feel lonely n helpless.i ll be there in feb n coordinate everythin n ll even bunk my exam i had to do for their sake.dnt worry im alwayz there.

Change is the law of life!

last few dayz are not going right for me.as such there is no problem coz i have learnt to adjust myself according to the situations.there are some amount of tensions in my life but there is nothing to bother.the main thing is tat ppl around me give tensions which i cant afford to take.my tensions are about my exams as i feel very inferior in classes when my frends discuss some topics and it seems like i have come from another world or something.then there is a frend of mine who is very confused about her relationship with her boy frend and she irritates me now n then(why do such ppl make relationships?).wtf can i do about these things.yes for the first problem i have to study tat i ll start as soon as possible n for the second thing i have no clue.yesterday wat happened made me very sad.it seems like my family doesnt need any of my suggestions in any of the important matter.well i think they must be taking the right decisions as they are very much more experienced than me and i must not interfere in these matters.
Now i m buzzed by two thoughts,one is tat i should take it very lightly n ppl would agree n tell tat it is a sign of maturity,second buzz is tat let ppl do watever they want n you do wat ur insticts say.
Frankly speaking i would prefer the second one n will be happy.now i wont tell them anything to do or suggest coz mine are of no use(never mind).i just have to do watever they say n would do as per my thinking.in this case here i find a positive point tat is now onwards i will be just informing them tat see i m going to do this and will not ask for the permission.yes i know it sounds very childish but as long as im getting freedom it is the best way to handle.now i think i dont need to take any kind of permission from anyone and do watever i feel is right for me...

priorities change depending upon the interests!!

Sunday went useless.i tried studyin and even went to rr to study but there was no concentration so i left early.these dayz im very updated about the famous activities going on in the county and its all coz of twitter.com.i joined twitter a month ago and started following some of the famous ppl in the film industry n also the mtv vjs.at first it was very boring as there was nothing for me to do but it became exciting when i sigined in a saw a message saying:"Thanx for following me-amithaabh bachchan."i got really excited and started adding the celebraties.i added nikhil chinapa,priyanka chopra n gul panag too.these ppl are alwayz connected to twitter and are alwayz updating their status.gul is alwayz on tours n is placin the links to her snaps which contain very knowledgable things on the other hand nikhil is alwayz attending the the DJ parties and even the fashion week ceremonies and uploads the current pics.now when i watch the news it seems like i have already seen the news a day before.now im the aaj tak and i m sab se tej(hehehe).yesterday nikhil updated that he ll be the host of the marathon which is being held in delhi and today i saw him taking interview of King Khan himself.earlier i was alwayz on orkut sittin n scraping frends n playing quizzies on fb but nw instead of orkut n fb in first signin in twitter n see the updates n i m luvin it.