virtual thinking!

The thing i feel is that ppl feel im a bit confused about my career.i wont deny this fact but i wud like to speak against this feeling.the thing is that i m n tactical type of a person,i take life as it comes.i dnt make strategical decisions but like to make tactical ones.one the same time i feel a person should be focussed n should know what he wants to do in his life.i really respect this feeling n its is right for sure,but again thinking on this topic an answer comes to my mind or u can say its an urge from my heart that i dnt want go in a rat race instead i want to do something different but the 'different'word seems difficult at this stage.i m still figuring it out.i m sure there must be something gud which will be different but difficult at the same time more interesting,in which i wud feel comfortable,happy,enthusiastic.In which i wud feel the sense of completeness.

title-pls choose urself!!

Today im very happy,the reason is tat it wa my last exam (6th sem)and i hope i ll clear in all he papers.its been 4 yrs in the coll so we can always make out if we r passin or giving supplies.:P.Atlast i m in the 4th yr with my classmates and i just have to give the other 4 papers with the mates.actually i found it very difficult when i was giving these xams coz it was only me who was studyin and tat 2 giving exams with juniors.here juniors is not the problem,the problem is tat we all used do group study and discuss he topics between ourselves which i could not do it this time.,it was only me in the examination hall and no one familiar. never mind it had to happen and i passed in the test.I wud really like to thank all my frends who help me this tough situation(joy ,anki,danish,manish,abhinaw and also to the ppl whom i always disturbed n called them to wish me luck,mind u i m a bit superstitious.:P).it was a very tectic period of my life,givin so many exams(the mid sem,sessionals,end sem and not to forget the no.of letters i have written to the pro vc and the dean).there was a bit of frustration in me,there was a feelin which wanted me to go home,remembering mom,listening to luka chippi n thinkin as if the male version sung by me but the limit is never crossed.sometimes i really want to know what ll i do if the limit is crossed,ll i be banging my head on the wall or ll be crying inside my heart and not letting ppl know about it.why do i do this the answer is still not known,why do i not let ppl know the real side of me.i think i just love knowing ppl more than leting them know me.m not sayin that ppl dnt know me,yes there r ppl who know me but there are things i like to keep it to myself.anyways returning to the topics im very lucky(finger crossed)to have frends like these ppl,i have been right in knowing a person a coordinating with him n wud like it to be like this forever.

expressions unlimited!!!

hi ppl..the dayz of my coll lyf are ending so fast and its my bad luck that im not able to enjoy them to the fullest coz of my missed semester xams are goin on.there is no such tensions or m studyin 24x7 but im just bored of giving these xams.nw there is no such feelin tat i have to study coz tommorrow is my xam but im giving my best at it n i hope tat i ll score gud.these days many things are happening tat i wanted it to happen a bit earlier but its alwayz my bad luck n i just cant help it but thank God at least it happened lately.i believe in a healthy relationships and i dnt mind it comming at any stage of my life.
Today Dad is goin to South Korea for an indo-korean meeting..yuppiee.....and like any other child i wont want him to bring many n many things for me but even wen i want to hand him my list of gadges there was sumthing tat stopped me.dad kept on asking lyk tell me anything u want,he asked me even wen he was boardin the flight but i dint tell.Thats not my style,tats not anuj who is alwayz askin ppl to gift or sponser.Instead i wanted to tell dad you have done enough since my childhood and i feel i never deserved so much of care you n mom have put till date.but i got senti mental n could nt utter a word.:(.i spoilt the claimax scene hehe.i always believe in expressing feeling coz there can be times when u really want to express it to the other person but u are not able to coz of some reasons and later you regret.this feeling came to me recently when i met a boy almost of my age,we both were going for the dialysis but his condition was critical,he was all loaded with oxygen mask and blood tubes surrounding him.i talked 2 him for abt 20 mins,we talked abt ourselves,he was a medical student.when my turn came he was so happy to meet me that he lifted his right hand for a shakehand knowing that it wud hurt him a lot coz of the injections and the pipes.i told him tat it was not needed we cud have just said bye but he told me that it was neccessary to express feelings even when u know it ll pain coz no one knows if you get another chance or not.i was stunned!!!but that very feeling i can still feel when i remm that day....So ppl never think of the world wud feel...just express it because we are humans and we have this advantage of expressing our thoughts to pll around...