Big is the word.I m coming.

Its been almost eight months since I visited my blog site.I wonder what brought me back hhmmm…hmmm..still figuring out..Blogging was something is started liking lately,it was the best thing where I used to find peace of mind or I used to bring my frustration out.Does that mean I don’t get frustrated these days. I think no I have now found out the solution to it or you can say applied my own dealing into my life that I used to give to my friends in college.Frustration is a chemical locha or a mind set when a person is sad and helpless,it can be cured without medicine through regaining your mental stability.The definition seems to be so easy but it is a hard thing when it comes to you.When u see ppl working ,getting salary and u studying.Anyways it is said that the person who choose a tough path make it big.:P
I left TCS came back home,started preparing for PSU entrance exams.Sometimes ppl say that I made a big mistake,I should have joined TCS,some say because I got through easily that is why I did not take the job seriously :P.I don’t know if I made a mistake or took it easily,I just know that it had to happen and it did happen,it was destined.I do believe in destiny big time and I m sure that I will make it big some day soon.I just have to keep patience and keep working instead of stopping and hoping that something good will come my way.
These days I find myself changing may be for the better or ppl would say I m getting matured.But being matured can not change you from inside,it can not change your thinking totally.Now I m more focused on my future,I m no more a person who used to be satisfied with what he had and was afraid of thinking beyond the horizon.I am getting greedy day by day,I want more in my life.I want to do somthing big, I want to sail across the imaginary ocean of lava that make me awake at 3 in the morning and I m ready to work hard as hard as possible.It is very foolish of me to compare myself to Dad.The mile stone he has reached is out of sight for me and I know I wont be able to reach there ever be it this life time or the other six.But there is an urge that I will make a day come when he will be referred by my name like that’s Anuj’s Dad.The proudest moment of my life.
It is just 2-3 months I will be back into the same race which started when I went to the school actually I was never out of the race I was just taking refreshments.

Had a amazing trip to puri yesterday.i was really excited for the trip a day before n that to n extent that i woke up at 6 in the morning after being bored of getting up at 3 am for the exams.we had planned to start at 8 sharp but because of the all time lazy creatures like anki n joy we are never on time.we started at 8.45.it was a nice drive and the weather also seemed good.the drive reminded me of the trips to jamshedpur bu the only difference was these are single lane roads,difficult to drive and those are wider ones.it took us one and a half hour to each there.first we went to the temple to get blessed as i believe in God to the core.sometimes i think how can ppl go to puri n return without visiting the temple n i m sure that i will never commit this kind of mistake ever in my life be it me visiting only the premises of the temple n not the core part because of the time limit or a long awaited queue.from the temple we went to the mayfair hotel where we had our lunch n got dressed in our beach outfit and went to the pink house beach were we had an amazing time putting each other inside the upcoming waves and named it visarjan hehe...it was already 3 and it was time for us to return.we decided to reurn from the konark road(the other way round)in which they say it is the other marine drive where the sea is just few metres away from the road.i m telling u it is so damn good,the beach is so clean and it seemed as if we are in a foreign country.the road is all surrounded by the trees and yellow flowers outlining the highway.while returning we all were tired and the other ppl were sleeping while me enjoying the drive with my favourites being played.i so wanted the journey not to end and the destination never to come but we came back at the desired time limit.it was a very well enjoyed trip and what else do we need when the days are numbered.

virtual thinking!

The thing i feel is that ppl feel im a bit confused about my career.i wont deny this fact but i wud like to speak against this feeling.the thing is that i m n tactical type of a person,i take life as it comes.i dnt make strategical decisions but like to make tactical ones.one the same time i feel a person should be focussed n should know what he wants to do in his life.i really respect this feeling n its is right for sure,but again thinking on this topic an answer comes to my mind or u can say its an urge from my heart that i dnt want go in a rat race instead i want to do something different but the 'different'word seems difficult at this stage.i m still figuring it out.i m sure there must be something gud which will be different but difficult at the same time more interesting,in which i wud feel comfortable,happy,enthusiastic.In which i wud feel the sense of completeness.

title-pls choose urself!!

Today im very happy,the reason is tat it wa my last exam (6th sem)and i hope i ll clear in all he papers.its been 4 yrs in the coll so we can always make out if we r passin or giving supplies.:P.Atlast i m in the 4th yr with my classmates and i just have to give the other 4 papers with the mates.actually i found it very difficult when i was giving these xams coz it was only me who was studyin and tat 2 giving exams with juniors.here juniors is not the problem,the problem is tat we all used do group study and discuss he topics between ourselves which i could not do it this time.,it was only me in the examination hall and no one familiar. never mind it had to happen and i passed in the test.I wud really like to thank all my frends who help me this tough situation(joy ,anki,danish,manish,abhinaw and also to the ppl whom i always disturbed n called them to wish me luck,mind u i m a bit superstitious.:P).it was a very tectic period of my life,givin so many exams(the mid sem,sessionals,end sem and not to forget the no.of letters i have written to the pro vc and the dean).there was a bit of frustration in me,there was a feelin which wanted me to go home,remembering mom,listening to luka chippi n thinkin as if the male version sung by me but the limit is never crossed.sometimes i really want to know what ll i do if the limit is crossed,ll i be banging my head on the wall or ll be crying inside my heart and not letting ppl know about it.why do i do this the answer is still not known,why do i not let ppl know the real side of me.i think i just love knowing ppl more than leting them know me.m not sayin that ppl dnt know me,yes there r ppl who know me but there are things i like to keep it to myself.anyways returning to the topics im very lucky(finger crossed)to have frends like these ppl,i have been right in knowing a person a coordinating with him n wud like it to be like this forever.

expressions unlimited!!!

hi ppl..the dayz of my coll lyf are ending so fast and its my bad luck that im not able to enjoy them to the fullest coz of my missed semester xams are goin on.there is no such tensions or m studyin 24x7 but im just bored of giving these xams.nw there is no such feelin tat i have to study coz tommorrow is my xam but im giving my best at it n i hope tat i ll score gud.these days many things are happening tat i wanted it to happen a bit earlier but its alwayz my bad luck n i just cant help it but thank God at least it happened lately.i believe in a healthy relationships and i dnt mind it comming at any stage of my life.
Today Dad is goin to South Korea for an indo-korean meeting..yuppiee.....and like any other child i wont want him to bring many n many things for me but even wen i want to hand him my list of gadges there was sumthing tat stopped me.dad kept on asking lyk tell me anything u want,he asked me even wen he was boardin the flight but i dint tell.Thats not my style,tats not anuj who is alwayz askin ppl to gift or sponser.Instead i wanted to tell dad you have done enough since my childhood and i feel i never deserved so much of care you n mom have put till date.but i got senti mental n could nt utter a word.:(.i spoilt the claimax scene hehe.i always believe in expressing feeling coz there can be times when u really want to express it to the other person but u are not able to coz of some reasons and later you regret.this feeling came to me recently when i met a boy almost of my age,we both were going for the dialysis but his condition was critical,he was all loaded with oxygen mask and blood tubes surrounding him.i talked 2 him for abt 20 mins,we talked abt ourselves,he was a medical student.when my turn came he was so happy to meet me that he lifted his right hand for a shakehand knowing that it wud hurt him a lot coz of the injections and the pipes.i told him tat it was not needed we cud have just said bye but he told me that it was neccessary to express feelings even when u know it ll pain coz no one knows if you get another chance or not.i was stunned!!!but that very feeling i can still feel when i remm that day....So ppl never think of the world wud feel...just express it because we are humans and we have this advantage of expressing our thoughts to pll around...

kiddo......

hii ppl...its been a long tym since i have blogged.let me tell u that the tym has changed like a velocity V for me and guess what i m placed now..yaaayyy...i m a rezgaar..:)it is not a dream come true for me but it is more than tat coz i never thought tat i would ever convert into TCS in my dreams,i was just testing myself to know where i stand in this competative world and found myself floating in the ocean without a life jacket.hehehe....well yesh treat for all of you no doubt but most importantly i want to tell u tat today 28th jan is my second birthday....i hope u all can recall..today i turn an year old or u can say my kidney is now an yr old..happy birthday kidoo...:P.today im thinking of going to the temple n le c wat more i can do 4 kidoo,ll keep u all updated...signin off now..bbye

late realisations but handy!!!

hi ppl!!hope u r in a gud health.These dayz the main topic under discussion is didz sagai n i m very excited.There r so many ppl comin to attend the function tat i had never expected.there r ppl 4m all over the country.For the past 2 dayz i have been makin the list of ppl n assignin the rooms booked.all the day i assign the rooms n think tat my work is complete but in the evenin i come 2 knw tat few ppl more have also confirmed their arrival n i have to again do a fresh job,never mind i just enjoy doin it.The main thing at the back of my mind is the midsem exams dates which i think ll interfere in my visit here,i just hope it does not collide which the sagai date.There ll be so much work which has to be taken care of n i think i ll manage to cope up with everything if ppl dnt stop me 4m doin it coz they think tat i can not handle so much of pressure at this tym.i knw there ll be some instructions given to me by the Directors of the family but i m nt goin to listen to them n this is my 1st clause tat i have given to my parents.The second clause is tat i need an independent vehicle which flows my order n even i dont need a driver.These clause can be fulfilled by me myself but its gud to tell them before.
A few dayz bak i realised tat there is a bit of stupidity inside me.Wat happend is tat coz of a gal there was a fight b/w my frend n me n tat also becoz of a stupid reason.yes i think it was my mistake n a bit of his but soon i realised my mistake n everythin came back to normal.yes there is a gud point in this fight tat i realised tat i was walking on a road of illusion 4 the past 2 yrs n nw i have corrected myself which makes me more confident and more focused towards other important chapters of my lyf.Thank you Frend 4 makin me feel this confidence in me ,yes you did this unknowingly......:) thanx again.