Sailed through with His grace!!

hii ppl....these dayz m at home n i m feelin really relaxed.the end sems are over n they were really tirin as i had to scope up with a lot of syllabus.came down to home 3 days bak n had a lot of fun.few days bak went the anniversary of the date on which i got admitted at aiims(hw cud i forget the day which changed my lyf)yes on this day 26th of nov God tested my family to n extreme limit n me to the other of the horizon.though He made me suffer a lot but He also gave me the strength n the will power to overcome the toughest situations which came as a burden a yr ago.the whole day i was tellin mom tat this tym we were headin towards the doctor or we were goin to board the train 4 delhi n c too reminded me of the situations faced at tat tym.all my family members who came to receive me on the station called me n wished me lyk it was my second bde.
last winter went very fast as i was not able to feel the cold coz i was in the room 1014,new pvt ward,aiims..hehehe i still remmeber the room n the nurses..sleepin on the hospital bed with mom on the attendant one n other ppl surroundin me in the day tym,playin cards with mom n didi,callin battu n jiju to miss their offices n come to the room so tat we can play luddo...hehehe.Dad n mama goin to the doctors for dad gettin checkup as a donor,mami makin my favorite food so tat i eat more n more...ppl takin me for dialysis n sisters punchin needles into my skin,me usin ipod at the tym of dialysis n other ppl laughin at me or applauding at my courage..everyday goin to the temple n prayin 4 my recovery.
ppl say we should forget the bad tyms n only remember happy ones but i suggest tat we shuld also remember the bad tym 2 so tat we can cherish the gud ones.These dayz sleepin in my room inside the cozziest blanket tat i can take makes me feel lyk i m still sleepin in the hospital bed inside 1014 n mom sleepin on the attendant one.

imp role to be played.

exams approachin n still i dnt have my notes ready..this has not happened for the first tym but this tym i m a bit serious.my thinkin towards exam has never changed and still i feel the same tat i have or in fact everyone till my age become use to these types of exam as we r giving them from chidhood days n for me its alwayz same coz i everytym manage to score the same the odd 70%.so there is any sort of load on me coz i think this tym also i ll manage.
I have alwayz been a God fearing person n think tat He will do something gud every tym i need them.last post i posted ,i was i bit senti n a lot mental.my state of mind as been like a pendelom which swings to the extreme kind of thoughts.yesterday mom came down here i dnt knw why but luking at her and listening to her changed my thought which i had a week ago.This tym i have to go home n show my capabilies tat i alwayz had but due to the health problems i m not able to show.gone are the days when ppl needed to take care of me coz i think i m back n ll be able to do things perfectly.i m going to work hard as hard as possible n never lets mom dad feel lonely n helpless.i ll be there in feb n coordinate everythin n ll even bunk my exam i had to do for their sake.dnt worry im alwayz there.

Change is the law of life!

last few dayz are not going right for me.as such there is no problem coz i have learnt to adjust myself according to the situations.there are some amount of tensions in my life but there is nothing to bother.the main thing is tat ppl around me give tensions which i cant afford to take.my tensions are about my exams as i feel very inferior in classes when my frends discuss some topics and it seems like i have come from another world or something.then there is a frend of mine who is very confused about her relationship with her boy frend and she irritates me now n then(why do such ppl make relationships?).wtf can i do about these things.yes for the first problem i have to study tat i ll start as soon as possible n for the second thing i have no clue.yesterday wat happened made me very sad.it seems like my family doesnt need any of my suggestions in any of the important matter.well i think they must be taking the right decisions as they are very much more experienced than me and i must not interfere in these matters.
Now i m buzzed by two thoughts,one is tat i should take it very lightly n ppl would agree n tell tat it is a sign of maturity,second buzz is tat let ppl do watever they want n you do wat ur insticts say.
Frankly speaking i would prefer the second one n will be happy.now i wont tell them anything to do or suggest coz mine are of no use(never mind).i just have to do watever they say n would do as per my thinking.in this case here i find a positive point tat is now onwards i will be just informing them tat see i m going to do this and will not ask for the permission.yes i know it sounds very childish but as long as im getting freedom it is the best way to handle.now i think i dont need to take any kind of permission from anyone and do watever i feel is right for me...

priorities change depending upon the interests!!

Sunday went useless.i tried studyin and even went to rr to study but there was no concentration so i left early.these dayz im very updated about the famous activities going on in the county and its all coz of twitter.com.i joined twitter a month ago and started following some of the famous ppl in the film industry n also the mtv vjs.at first it was very boring as there was nothing for me to do but it became exciting when i sigined in a saw a message saying:"Thanx for following me-amithaabh bachchan."i got really excited and started adding the celebraties.i added nikhil chinapa,priyanka chopra n gul panag too.these ppl are alwayz connected to twitter and are alwayz updating their status.gul is alwayz on tours n is placin the links to her snaps which contain very knowledgable things on the other hand nikhil is alwayz attending the the DJ parties and even the fashion week ceremonies and uploads the current pics.now when i watch the news it seems like i have already seen the news a day before.now im the aaj tak and i m sab se tej(hehehe).yesterday nikhil updated that he ll be the host of the marathon which is being held in delhi and today i saw him taking interview of King Khan himself.earlier i was alwayz on orkut sittin n scraping frends n playing quizzies on fb but nw instead of orkut n fb in first signin in twitter n see the updates n i m luvin it.

huh.

its 6.30 in the morning n today is my project viva at 1.asusual i m not prepared 4 it.was just going through the status report wat all my group mates have made.it seems tat they have really worked hard for it as our guide is a wicked kind of a person who is alwayz on with this so called guru parvachans.my viva depends on wat kind of mood he is in.if he is in a bad mood then he will definetly ask me core uml questions which seems to be difficult for me to answer(i would never answer if i had attended class also)but i have the old reason tat i have not attended class for medical reasons.but he is now getting used to my various reasons i give to him for not being present on the inportant dayz of evaluation.he has also called my group mates along n told me tat we will discuss about the future prospects of the project.as of now it seemz tat the viva will be easy n he will be busy with other people.lets hope for the best n go through the diagrams right now.

different perceptions!!

today's day was a bit busy one.but its not coz i hav studied a lot or attended classes but i was busy in submitting the applications and roaming abt in the sun for xerox.my stamina seems to have decreased a lot n i m really worried as my end sems are approarchin.mid sems were really tiering coz all the exams were continous.this tym there is only one day gap between two n the course is also very vast.
i sumtimes think tat everything will be smooth as God is alwayz with me but at the same tym it strikes my mind tat God is alwayz with every person then why does sumthin bad happens to a person.some dayz bak i had an argument with a frend of mine over this topic.the frend of maine is a very God furious n i must say superstitious.she was tellin me tat i should say sorry to God if i dnt keep fast on some auspicious day or He will leave my side.i told her tat i dnt contradict her theory but i have my own.i m a person who loves watchin mythological serials n hav noticed many a tyms God tellin tat the 1st place shuld alwayz be given to ur parents n the second to God himself.i really accept this statement coz it is our parent who give us everythin n do their best to keep us haapy n even sacrifice.God is something virtual.He make help you in crisis or make not but parents will alwayz help.They are alwayz with you be it in good tyms or bad.they are the pillars of our life so why shouldnt we give them the 1st place above HIM....

Sorry Dad!!

hii ppl here i m after a very long tym.was just irritatin my sis as usual n she clapped me so i switched over to the internet hehhe.now i m absolutely f9 n doin my daily work n even joined my coll.these dayz many gud movies r releasin n i just managed to watch wake up sidd(2 times).it was a very awesome movie to watch especially for our generation ppl.watchin the movie twice i realised n important thing tat tellin sorry to parents is much tougher than tellin to anyone.The first time i saw the movie i thought tat wats there in tellin ur father tat Dad i made a mistake i m sry for what i hav done.But God contradicted my thinkin.Soon after i came bak home n was irritated by the kind of food i was gettin n the some other reasons,dad always carin n supportin told me to get my blood test again in tat week and i just couldnt stop me from reacting n i denied him.i felt so bad n dad was also very upset.i had never done lyk this before n i promise wont do in future.mom came to me n told me tat i was wrong(i knew but was helpless).Nxt day i gave my blood but dad dint say a word to me,i tried my best but i was nt able to say sorry.i dnt knw why it was difficult but there is no explanation.