Big is the word.I m coming.

Its been almost eight months since I visited my blog site.I wonder what brought me back hhmmm…hmmm..still figuring out..Blogging was something is started liking lately,it was the best thing where I used to find peace of mind or I used to bring my frustration out.Does that mean I don’t get frustrated these days. I think no I have now found out the solution to it or you can say applied my own dealing into my life that I used to give to my friends in college.Frustration is a chemical locha or a mind set when a person is sad and helpless,it can be cured without medicine through regaining your mental stability.The definition seems to be so easy but it is a hard thing when it comes to you.When u see ppl working ,getting salary and u studying.Anyways it is said that the person who choose a tough path make it big.:P
I left TCS came back home,started preparing for PSU entrance exams.Sometimes ppl say that I made a big mistake,I should have joined TCS,some say because I got through easily that is why I did not take the job seriously :P.I don’t know if I made a mistake or took it easily,I just know that it had to happen and it did happen,it was destined.I do believe in destiny big time and I m sure that I will make it big some day soon.I just have to keep patience and keep working instead of stopping and hoping that something good will come my way.
These days I find myself changing may be for the better or ppl would say I m getting matured.But being matured can not change you from inside,it can not change your thinking totally.Now I m more focused on my future,I m no more a person who used to be satisfied with what he had and was afraid of thinking beyond the horizon.I am getting greedy day by day,I want more in my life.I want to do somthing big, I want to sail across the imaginary ocean of lava that make me awake at 3 in the morning and I m ready to work hard as hard as possible.It is very foolish of me to compare myself to Dad.The mile stone he has reached is out of sight for me and I know I wont be able to reach there ever be it this life time or the other six.But there is an urge that I will make a day come when he will be referred by my name like that’s Anuj’s Dad.The proudest moment of my life.
It is just 2-3 months I will be back into the same race which started when I went to the school actually I was never out of the race I was just taking refreshments.

Had a amazing trip to puri yesterday.i was really excited for the trip a day before n that to n extent that i woke up at 6 in the morning after being bored of getting up at 3 am for the exams.we had planned to start at 8 sharp but because of the all time lazy creatures like anki n joy we are never on time.we started at 8.45.it was a nice drive and the weather also seemed good.the drive reminded me of the trips to jamshedpur bu the only difference was these are single lane roads,difficult to drive and those are wider ones.it took us one and a half hour to each there.first we went to the temple to get blessed as i believe in God to the core.sometimes i think how can ppl go to puri n return without visiting the temple n i m sure that i will never commit this kind of mistake ever in my life be it me visiting only the premises of the temple n not the core part because of the time limit or a long awaited queue.from the temple we went to the mayfair hotel where we had our lunch n got dressed in our beach outfit and went to the pink house beach were we had an amazing time putting each other inside the upcoming waves and named it visarjan hehe...it was already 3 and it was time for us to return.we decided to reurn from the konark road(the other way round)in which they say it is the other marine drive where the sea is just few metres away from the road.i m telling u it is so damn good,the beach is so clean and it seemed as if we are in a foreign country.the road is all surrounded by the trees and yellow flowers outlining the highway.while returning we all were tired and the other ppl were sleeping while me enjoying the drive with my favourites being played.i so wanted the journey not to end and the destination never to come but we came back at the desired time limit.it was a very well enjoyed trip and what else do we need when the days are numbered.

virtual thinking!

The thing i feel is that ppl feel im a bit confused about my career.i wont deny this fact but i wud like to speak against this feeling.the thing is that i m n tactical type of a person,i take life as it comes.i dnt make strategical decisions but like to make tactical ones.one the same time i feel a person should be focussed n should know what he wants to do in his life.i really respect this feeling n its is right for sure,but again thinking on this topic an answer comes to my mind or u can say its an urge from my heart that i dnt want go in a rat race instead i want to do something different but the 'different'word seems difficult at this stage.i m still figuring it out.i m sure there must be something gud which will be different but difficult at the same time more interesting,in which i wud feel comfortable,happy,enthusiastic.In which i wud feel the sense of completeness.

title-pls choose urself!!

Today im very happy,the reason is tat it wa my last exam (6th sem)and i hope i ll clear in all he papers.its been 4 yrs in the coll so we can always make out if we r passin or giving supplies.:P.Atlast i m in the 4th yr with my classmates and i just have to give the other 4 papers with the mates.actually i found it very difficult when i was giving these xams coz it was only me who was studyin and tat 2 giving exams with juniors.here juniors is not the problem,the problem is tat we all used do group study and discuss he topics between ourselves which i could not do it this time.,it was only me in the examination hall and no one familiar. never mind it had to happen and i passed in the test.I wud really like to thank all my frends who help me this tough situation(joy ,anki,danish,manish,abhinaw and also to the ppl whom i always disturbed n called them to wish me luck,mind u i m a bit superstitious.:P).it was a very tectic period of my life,givin so many exams(the mid sem,sessionals,end sem and not to forget the no.of letters i have written to the pro vc and the dean).there was a bit of frustration in me,there was a feelin which wanted me to go home,remembering mom,listening to luka chippi n thinkin as if the male version sung by me but the limit is never crossed.sometimes i really want to know what ll i do if the limit is crossed,ll i be banging my head on the wall or ll be crying inside my heart and not letting ppl know about it.why do i do this the answer is still not known,why do i not let ppl know the real side of me.i think i just love knowing ppl more than leting them know me.m not sayin that ppl dnt know me,yes there r ppl who know me but there are things i like to keep it to myself.anyways returning to the topics im very lucky(finger crossed)to have frends like these ppl,i have been right in knowing a person a coordinating with him n wud like it to be like this forever.

expressions unlimited!!!

hi ppl..the dayz of my coll lyf are ending so fast and its my bad luck that im not able to enjoy them to the fullest coz of my missed semester xams are goin on.there is no such tensions or m studyin 24x7 but im just bored of giving these xams.nw there is no such feelin tat i have to study coz tommorrow is my xam but im giving my best at it n i hope tat i ll score gud.these days many things are happening tat i wanted it to happen a bit earlier but its alwayz my bad luck n i just cant help it but thank God at least it happened lately.i believe in a healthy relationships and i dnt mind it comming at any stage of my life.
Today Dad is goin to South Korea for an indo-korean meeting..yuppiee.....and like any other child i wont want him to bring many n many things for me but even wen i want to hand him my list of gadges there was sumthing tat stopped me.dad kept on asking lyk tell me anything u want,he asked me even wen he was boardin the flight but i dint tell.Thats not my style,tats not anuj who is alwayz askin ppl to gift or sponser.Instead i wanted to tell dad you have done enough since my childhood and i feel i never deserved so much of care you n mom have put till date.but i got senti mental n could nt utter a word.:(.i spoilt the claimax scene hehe.i always believe in expressing feeling coz there can be times when u really want to express it to the other person but u are not able to coz of some reasons and later you regret.this feeling came to me recently when i met a boy almost of my age,we both were going for the dialysis but his condition was critical,he was all loaded with oxygen mask and blood tubes surrounding him.i talked 2 him for abt 20 mins,we talked abt ourselves,he was a medical student.when my turn came he was so happy to meet me that he lifted his right hand for a shakehand knowing that it wud hurt him a lot coz of the injections and the pipes.i told him tat it was not needed we cud have just said bye but he told me that it was neccessary to express feelings even when u know it ll pain coz no one knows if you get another chance or not.i was stunned!!!but that very feeling i can still feel when i remm that day....So ppl never think of the world wud feel...just express it because we are humans and we have this advantage of expressing our thoughts to pll around...

kiddo......

hii ppl...its been a long tym since i have blogged.let me tell u that the tym has changed like a velocity V for me and guess what i m placed now..yaaayyy...i m a rezgaar..:)it is not a dream come true for me but it is more than tat coz i never thought tat i would ever convert into TCS in my dreams,i was just testing myself to know where i stand in this competative world and found myself floating in the ocean without a life jacket.hehehe....well yesh treat for all of you no doubt but most importantly i want to tell u tat today 28th jan is my second birthday....i hope u all can recall..today i turn an year old or u can say my kidney is now an yr old..happy birthday kidoo...:P.today im thinking of going to the temple n le c wat more i can do 4 kidoo,ll keep u all updated...signin off now..bbye

late realisations but handy!!!

hi ppl!!hope u r in a gud health.These dayz the main topic under discussion is didz sagai n i m very excited.There r so many ppl comin to attend the function tat i had never expected.there r ppl 4m all over the country.For the past 2 dayz i have been makin the list of ppl n assignin the rooms booked.all the day i assign the rooms n think tat my work is complete but in the evenin i come 2 knw tat few ppl more have also confirmed their arrival n i have to again do a fresh job,never mind i just enjoy doin it.The main thing at the back of my mind is the midsem exams dates which i think ll interfere in my visit here,i just hope it does not collide which the sagai date.There ll be so much work which has to be taken care of n i think i ll manage to cope up with everything if ppl dnt stop me 4m doin it coz they think tat i can not handle so much of pressure at this tym.i knw there ll be some instructions given to me by the Directors of the family but i m nt goin to listen to them n this is my 1st clause tat i have given to my parents.The second clause is tat i need an independent vehicle which flows my order n even i dont need a driver.These clause can be fulfilled by me myself but its gud to tell them before.
A few dayz bak i realised tat there is a bit of stupidity inside me.Wat happend is tat coz of a gal there was a fight b/w my frend n me n tat also becoz of a stupid reason.yes i think it was my mistake n a bit of his but soon i realised my mistake n everythin came back to normal.yes there is a gud point in this fight tat i realised tat i was walking on a road of illusion 4 the past 2 yrs n nw i have corrected myself which makes me more confident and more focused towards other important chapters of my lyf.Thank you Frend 4 makin me feel this confidence in me ,yes you did this unknowingly......:) thanx again.

Sailed through with His grace!!

hii ppl....these dayz m at home n i m feelin really relaxed.the end sems are over n they were really tirin as i had to scope up with a lot of syllabus.came down to home 3 days bak n had a lot of fun.few days bak went the anniversary of the date on which i got admitted at aiims(hw cud i forget the day which changed my lyf)yes on this day 26th of nov God tested my family to n extreme limit n me to the other of the horizon.though He made me suffer a lot but He also gave me the strength n the will power to overcome the toughest situations which came as a burden a yr ago.the whole day i was tellin mom tat this tym we were headin towards the doctor or we were goin to board the train 4 delhi n c too reminded me of the situations faced at tat tym.all my family members who came to receive me on the station called me n wished me lyk it was my second bde.
last winter went very fast as i was not able to feel the cold coz i was in the room 1014,new pvt ward,aiims..hehehe i still remmeber the room n the nurses..sleepin on the hospital bed with mom on the attendant one n other ppl surroundin me in the day tym,playin cards with mom n didi,callin battu n jiju to miss their offices n come to the room so tat we can play luddo...hehehe.Dad n mama goin to the doctors for dad gettin checkup as a donor,mami makin my favorite food so tat i eat more n more...ppl takin me for dialysis n sisters punchin needles into my skin,me usin ipod at the tym of dialysis n other ppl laughin at me or applauding at my courage..everyday goin to the temple n prayin 4 my recovery.
ppl say we should forget the bad tyms n only remember happy ones but i suggest tat we shuld also remember the bad tym 2 so tat we can cherish the gud ones.These dayz sleepin in my room inside the cozziest blanket tat i can take makes me feel lyk i m still sleepin in the hospital bed inside 1014 n mom sleepin on the attendant one.

imp role to be played.

exams approachin n still i dnt have my notes ready..this has not happened for the first tym but this tym i m a bit serious.my thinkin towards exam has never changed and still i feel the same tat i have or in fact everyone till my age become use to these types of exam as we r giving them from chidhood days n for me its alwayz same coz i everytym manage to score the same the odd 70%.so there is any sort of load on me coz i think this tym also i ll manage.
I have alwayz been a God fearing person n think tat He will do something gud every tym i need them.last post i posted ,i was i bit senti n a lot mental.my state of mind as been like a pendelom which swings to the extreme kind of thoughts.yesterday mom came down here i dnt knw why but luking at her and listening to her changed my thought which i had a week ago.This tym i have to go home n show my capabilies tat i alwayz had but due to the health problems i m not able to show.gone are the days when ppl needed to take care of me coz i think i m back n ll be able to do things perfectly.i m going to work hard as hard as possible n never lets mom dad feel lonely n helpless.i ll be there in feb n coordinate everythin n ll even bunk my exam i had to do for their sake.dnt worry im alwayz there.

Change is the law of life!

last few dayz are not going right for me.as such there is no problem coz i have learnt to adjust myself according to the situations.there are some amount of tensions in my life but there is nothing to bother.the main thing is tat ppl around me give tensions which i cant afford to take.my tensions are about my exams as i feel very inferior in classes when my frends discuss some topics and it seems like i have come from another world or something.then there is a frend of mine who is very confused about her relationship with her boy frend and she irritates me now n then(why do such ppl make relationships?).wtf can i do about these things.yes for the first problem i have to study tat i ll start as soon as possible n for the second thing i have no clue.yesterday wat happened made me very sad.it seems like my family doesnt need any of my suggestions in any of the important matter.well i think they must be taking the right decisions as they are very much more experienced than me and i must not interfere in these matters.
Now i m buzzed by two thoughts,one is tat i should take it very lightly n ppl would agree n tell tat it is a sign of maturity,second buzz is tat let ppl do watever they want n you do wat ur insticts say.
Frankly speaking i would prefer the second one n will be happy.now i wont tell them anything to do or suggest coz mine are of no use(never mind).i just have to do watever they say n would do as per my thinking.in this case here i find a positive point tat is now onwards i will be just informing them tat see i m going to do this and will not ask for the permission.yes i know it sounds very childish but as long as im getting freedom it is the best way to handle.now i think i dont need to take any kind of permission from anyone and do watever i feel is right for me...

priorities change depending upon the interests!!

Sunday went useless.i tried studyin and even went to rr to study but there was no concentration so i left early.these dayz im very updated about the famous activities going on in the county and its all coz of twitter.com.i joined twitter a month ago and started following some of the famous ppl in the film industry n also the mtv vjs.at first it was very boring as there was nothing for me to do but it became exciting when i sigined in a saw a message saying:"Thanx for following me-amithaabh bachchan."i got really excited and started adding the celebraties.i added nikhil chinapa,priyanka chopra n gul panag too.these ppl are alwayz connected to twitter and are alwayz updating their status.gul is alwayz on tours n is placin the links to her snaps which contain very knowledgable things on the other hand nikhil is alwayz attending the the DJ parties and even the fashion week ceremonies and uploads the current pics.now when i watch the news it seems like i have already seen the news a day before.now im the aaj tak and i m sab se tej(hehehe).yesterday nikhil updated that he ll be the host of the marathon which is being held in delhi and today i saw him taking interview of King Khan himself.earlier i was alwayz on orkut sittin n scraping frends n playing quizzies on fb but nw instead of orkut n fb in first signin in twitter n see the updates n i m luvin it.

huh.

its 6.30 in the morning n today is my project viva at 1.asusual i m not prepared 4 it.was just going through the status report wat all my group mates have made.it seems tat they have really worked hard for it as our guide is a wicked kind of a person who is alwayz on with this so called guru parvachans.my viva depends on wat kind of mood he is in.if he is in a bad mood then he will definetly ask me core uml questions which seems to be difficult for me to answer(i would never answer if i had attended class also)but i have the old reason tat i have not attended class for medical reasons.but he is now getting used to my various reasons i give to him for not being present on the inportant dayz of evaluation.he has also called my group mates along n told me tat we will discuss about the future prospects of the project.as of now it seemz tat the viva will be easy n he will be busy with other people.lets hope for the best n go through the diagrams right now.

different perceptions!!

today's day was a bit busy one.but its not coz i hav studied a lot or attended classes but i was busy in submitting the applications and roaming abt in the sun for xerox.my stamina seems to have decreased a lot n i m really worried as my end sems are approarchin.mid sems were really tiering coz all the exams were continous.this tym there is only one day gap between two n the course is also very vast.
i sumtimes think tat everything will be smooth as God is alwayz with me but at the same tym it strikes my mind tat God is alwayz with every person then why does sumthin bad happens to a person.some dayz bak i had an argument with a frend of mine over this topic.the frend of maine is a very God furious n i must say superstitious.she was tellin me tat i should say sorry to God if i dnt keep fast on some auspicious day or He will leave my side.i told her tat i dnt contradict her theory but i have my own.i m a person who loves watchin mythological serials n hav noticed many a tyms God tellin tat the 1st place shuld alwayz be given to ur parents n the second to God himself.i really accept this statement coz it is our parent who give us everythin n do their best to keep us haapy n even sacrifice.God is something virtual.He make help you in crisis or make not but parents will alwayz help.They are alwayz with you be it in good tyms or bad.they are the pillars of our life so why shouldnt we give them the 1st place above HIM....

Sorry Dad!!

hii ppl here i m after a very long tym.was just irritatin my sis as usual n she clapped me so i switched over to the internet hehhe.now i m absolutely f9 n doin my daily work n even joined my coll.these dayz many gud movies r releasin n i just managed to watch wake up sidd(2 times).it was a very awesome movie to watch especially for our generation ppl.watchin the movie twice i realised n important thing tat tellin sorry to parents is much tougher than tellin to anyone.The first time i saw the movie i thought tat wats there in tellin ur father tat Dad i made a mistake i m sry for what i hav done.But God contradicted my thinkin.Soon after i came bak home n was irritated by the kind of food i was gettin n the some other reasons,dad always carin n supportin told me to get my blood test again in tat week and i just couldnt stop me from reacting n i denied him.i felt so bad n dad was also very upset.i had never done lyk this before n i promise wont do in future.mom came to me n told me tat i was wrong(i knew but was helpless).Nxt day i gave my blood but dad dint say a word to me,i tried my best but i was nt able to say sorry.i dnt knw why it was difficult but there is no explanation.

muuzzziiiccc muzziiccc mmmuuuuzzzziiiiccccc!!!!

hii frendz this is an update after a very long tym....the reason is known by u all i suppose.Actually there is nothing new to tell or discuss so to fill up the blank spaces below i m thinkin of tellin u all about the day today tym tat i spend these dayz.I get up around 8 in the morning and the countdown starts(towards the endin tym),hav my breakfast at around 9,surf net,watch tv n wait 4 2'0' clock for the lunch.yes its very boring i knw but it has to be lived.The main source of entertainment nowadayz is the muzzziiicccc...Earlier i was not so much attracted towards muzic but now i think i m gettin addicted to it.All the tym i m listenin when i m walking,going 4 the checkups n even in the room.Nowadayz my fav number is dhadhke jiya frm allo chaat...hav u listened to this number???guys i m tellin u its a very gud song,try it..These dayz i m also thinkin of learnin to play gitar instead of studyin 4 the semester exams(just see the heights).This looks like a gud sign n in few dayz i ll hav a new passion(muzic) or it may be just a bit of attraction coz there is no other gud entertainer 4 now.Lets hope 4 the best!!

change of medium!!!

hi...frendz u all must be thinkin about my leastest updates which i hav not posted 4 a very long tym....its not tat i m not writin anything...yes i m in the flow as i was previously but i hav confined my thinkin to a notebook,yes nowadayz i hav started writin in a notebook.I could hav posted those things in this blog but i can't do tat coz it contains somethings tat i don't want to make it public.Plz no guesses...it doesn't contain things u r thinkin off but some private chapters of my life.So sorry frendz for tat but it doesnt mean tat i ll stop writin but ll soon post tat will contain interestin and least borin things i promise!!!

God's Gift!!! r u blessed with them....

hey frendz today im really nervous coz tommorrow is a very imp day 4 me(reason is known by only 2 of my best frends).People say 4 a gud frendship there shud be a limited tym span in between 2 persons.In this tym span they intend to understand each other tat is the nature,thinkin etc.But in my point of view a gud frendship doesnt need any tym,it just need 2 wonderful persons with a beautiful heart.Yes frends i hav seen this n i hav experienced it on my own.Today i hav 2 of my frends,one whom i just knw 6-7 months from now n the second one i just met her on the train,4 months back n today they are my best frends. I think it was really a destiny or u can say we were destined to meet.I really cherish the moments tat i spent with them(the rr table grp),exam dayz just passed away lyk they had never come.Talkin to them(on the phone)makes m out of balance,chattin to them never reminds me tat its 2 in the mornin.Well these 2 are frend 4 life n i thank god 4 blessin me with these 2 "living diamonds"......
Thank u frendzz 4 being there 4 me .............

just lyk tat!!!

hey frends i thought of writing more of the characteristics but someone stole my idea n published it in his blog(kamina)......well leave it....Frendz i m really missin u all here coz i knw tat im missing the best dayz of my life but wat can i do it is not in my control.....Here im passin my tym mostly on the internet or watchin television.Its gud tat the India n NewZealand series in goin on which takes most of the burden.Tommorrow the match is at 6 n i hav to get up early to watch the 1st ball of the game.I think India is goin to outplay the NewZealand team as i saw in the news tat the boundaries r very short.Well lets hope 4 the best n keep my fingers crossed,i hope our batsmen play gud cricketin shorts and dnt giv away their wickets in haste....signin off 4 nw n meet u all with an interestin post tommorrow...

Playin Tym....This is 4 u frends.....

hii guys!! today im in a mood of playin some sort of a game.....The truth is tat i m not able to remember any of the instant on which i can write today,so i thought to make this post excitin 4 u all(mainly my classmates).So today im goin to discribe some of the characteristics of some of my frends(both boy n gal)sorry boyz how can i 4get them!!.....n u all have 2 recognise the discribed person...so lets see ur observation.....Here it goes...1.This boy is very close to my heart,he is famous as Don(come on nw its too easy),he is the running news channel on the road....who is he???.2.This boy is a real gud frend of mine,he is very naughty n he is more famous through his surname,he is a big tym filrt(sorry frend),(nw the major hint)he style of walkin is famous in the whole coll.....who is he???3.He is really a gud frend of mine,he is famous 4 removin viruses of our laptops(especially of gals hehee),he is very famous in the girls group n thinks himself to be the hero of the class(though he is not),most importantly he has a giv a damn theory...who is he??4.She is a gud frend of mine(i dont knw how),she has a very hot temperament n gets angry very fast,i love to listen to her dialogue especially when she is in form,she is very helpful till u dont mess up with her n i love irritating her all the tym so tat i can listen to her dialogues(heheh) who is she??5. This guy is the first frend tat i made in this coll after my roomates,he is genius n has alwayz helped me in any sort of a problem(thnx),he is a quizzin genius n he has been a person i look forward too.Who is he?? 6.This guy is a real gem,he is famous as the philosophical man or the shikarii(hahaha),he is very helpful in the exam times n the night before the exams he goes on 4 huntin in the IT floor for revisin the topics...guess his name???......
So u all can give ur answers in the comments with the serial number assigned to the person above......come on its very easy try it!!!!!

MahiVe!!!!!!

Today i want to share n excitin experience tat happened in my school lyf which gives me immense pleasure when i remember tat day.I met an eminent person.I was in class 11th or12th and asusual we frends had the habit of bunkin the classes n sittin in the stadium 4 hrs.Oneday we bunked n were sittin in the stadium and a match was going on.There i saw my frend bunty, he was batting and was really playing gud.But soon after playin his strokes he got out n joined me on the stands.I introduced him to my school frends(he played for the jharkhand team).We cracked jokes and where enjoyin the match.Our team needed 32 runs in 2 overs but there were only 3 wickets left.We were very tensed but suddenly Bunty told us to calm down coz Mahi was at the crease.I asked him about Mahi,he told me"bas tu dekhta jaa".U wont believe guys he hit 4 sixes n a 4 in a row......our school is situated just beside the stadium with its windows facin the stadium,the last six broke the glass pane of te window.But unfortunately Mahi got caught on the last ball with 5 runs to win from an over which was an easy task.He came to us n Bunty introduced him to me.I congratulated him for his aggressive innings n cracked jokes with him.Soon we won the match by 2 wkts.Then i dropped him to his place n when back to the school to attend the last period.I never knew tat one day this guy was goin to be the captain of our Indian team.Well i think i m lucky enough to meet him.Nowadays whenever he visits ranchi i m alwayz go there to meet him......